WHAT YOU REALLY WANT IN LIFE?

 

WHAT YOU REALLY WANT IN LIFE?

• WHAT WOULD I WISH FOR SOMEONE I LOVE?
• WHAT WOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE IF MONEY WASN'T AN ISSUE?
• WHAT THING I WOULD LIKE TO EXPERIENCE IF I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO FEAR?
• A GENIE GIVES ME THREE WISHES.WHAT WOULD THAT BE?
• WHAT WOULD MY IDEAL DAY LOOK LIKE?
• I'M 100 YEARS OLD AND LOOK BACK,WHAT WOULD I BE MOST HAPPY ABOUT?
• WHAT DO I NOT LIKE TO DO?

Hi,above are 7 questions for us to answer to seek what we really want in this life..and mine would be -:

• WHAT WOULD I WISH FOR SOMEONE I LOVE?

For my loved ones.. i wish them joy, safe and healthy no matter where they are.

• WHAT WOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE IF MONEY WASN'T AN ISSUE?

If money wasn't an issue, i would dedicate my life help out people as many as i can from poverty, build them a place where they can learn how to generate income, foundation that helps small businesses and adopt an orphans. 

• WHAT THING I WOULD LIKE TO EXPERIENCE IF I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO FEAR?

If i had absolutely no fear, i'd love to travel with my motorbike around the world, meet different people, explore different culture and tradition, learn new languages, embrace nature and made a documentaries along the journey and write a book.

• A GENIE GIVES ME THREE WISHES.WHAT WOULD THAT BE?

Hmm this 1 quite interesting...if this Genie really can grant me 3 wishes...to be honest i just need 1 which is i don't want to be born at all or in the other words i don't want to be exist at 1st place!

• WHAT WOULD MY IDEAL DAY LOOK LIKE?

My ideal day would be an early morning long drive in my car with my music on and my playlist on spotify kickin' all the old good bad memories..and i just drive with no exact destination...alone..i just get lost in time..drown in the memories..

• I'M 100 YEARS OLD AND LOOK BACK,WHAT WOULD I BE MOST HAPPY ABOUT?

The journey and experience of when i'm falling hard,losing hopes,where my heart is scattered into pieces, and then i stand tall and gather back my heart and fight back for my life, how i overcome every obstacles and learn from every mistakes that i've ever made and standing proud as the wisest person ever.   

• WHAT DO I NOT LIKE TO DO?

...too subjective... at the moment,nothing yet crossed my mind of what i do not like to do.

Deja Vu

 Salam 16 June 2021,

"Your brain falsely perceives what's happening in the present as a memory, or something that already happened. This type of brain dysfunction generally isn't cause for concern unless it happens regularly. Some experts believe another type of brain malfunction may cause déjà vu."

Aku nak cerita pasal Deja Vu aku dimana aku kerap bermimpi pergi tempat yang sama berulang kali.Bertahun-tahun jugakla aku still boleh visit tempat tu...tapi bapak arhhh creepy wei bila mimpi tempat yang sama sedangkan in real life kau tak boleh nak imagine pon tempat tu wujud kah atau kau pernah nampak kat mana2.Tapi in my case aku memang tak pernah lihat atau pergi tempat macam tu melainkan hanya dalam mimpi-mimpi aku.

Tempat yang aku kata ni cantik sangat serta tenang lagi harmoni..dia ada laut...tapi kat laut tu..macam ada rumah taman...tapi atas pasir dan setiap rumah terpisah..maksudnya jiran sebelah rumah kau kena naik sampan or swim je baru boleh..takder ehh titi ke apa..tapi aku tak nampak satu manusia pon melainkan aku sorang jerlah..masa aku tengok tu aku pon tak tau aku atas sampan ke...terapung ke...tapi bukan pandangan dari atas..aku selalu mimpi laut yang takder2..rumah yang aku cakap tadi rumah kecik jer...tak perasan plak dari batu ke apa...tapi sumpah wehhh view dia memang lawa...macam kau pergi bercuti untuk tenangkan jiwa walaupun hanya dalam mimpi saja.

Lagi satu aku selalu mimpi aku boleh terbang...hat ni memang best...mimpi ni dari kecik sampai aku tua ganyut dan repeated...senang jer...aku just kepak2 tangan aku pastu aku melayang la kat udara...lagi tinggi dari langsuir yang dok terbang kat hutan2 kat Malaysia ni...bila aku stop kepak tangan aku macam burung tu....aku akan jatuh hampir nak langgar pokok2 macam dalam cerita Twilight tu...view dari atas memang cantik...aku tak perlu belajar jadi Pilot untuk dapat tu semua...aku cuma perlu tidur ja....sebab tu kadang2 aku rasa tak nak bangun jer sebab mimpi tu terlalu indah....

Aku pernah pergi pasar basah yang terapung di tengah laut...yang ni ada la manusia2 lain...orang biasa macam kita jugak cuma barang dagangan depa tu jer pelik2...ikan dia pelik...rumpai apa ntah lagi diaorang jual..tapi pendek kata aku tak pernah tengok la...semua cantik2 dan menarik serta memukau mata...aku rasa macam tak nak balik...tu baru pasar basah jer aku dah tak nak balik...korang bayangkanlah...suasana dia tu tak tergambar..tapi pasar basah ni aku pergi sekali jer...yang kerap aku pergi tu rumah taman atas laut tu...takder daratan ya..nak kata pulau..bukan pulau..macam orang tambak pasir sejemput tengah2 laut...entahlah...

Kalau nak cerita mimpi bab laut ni tak habis..mungkin aku memang suka laut sangat kot...ataupun tersampuk hantu laut.hehehhehehe..aku pernah mimpi aku lompat dari kapal terjun ke laut...pastu aku tengah berenang aku nampak kapal selam kot..pastu tetiba aku ada balik atas kapal tu...kapal pattern baru..takderlah macam yang Captain Hook naik tu...haaa macam Titanic...ke aku ni pengaruh filem banyak sangat???Tapi kenapa mesti laut???bukan hutan??bukit?Gunung?Deja Vu kah?ker Brain Malfunction?

Apapun...syukur aku dapat travel alam ghaib bermodalkan air liur basi dan taik mata saja...dah jom tidoooo sambil travel...

Gudnite...mmmmuahhhhhh!

MT25 OR KTM DUKE 250

Assalammualaikum...

☝inilah buah hati pujaan hati pengarang jantung aku yang aku idam-idamkan sangat 2,3,4,5,6,7 menjak nih.Rasa tak sabaq nak akad nikah kat kedai motor dengan lafaz "Aku terima nikahnya MT25 @ KTM DUKE 250 dengan mas kahwinnya 22k hutaaaaaaaaaaanggg"Berhantaran kan helmet fullface sebijik dan helmet biasa sebijik,sehelai jaket ala2racer dan sepasang glove habuan aku nak melinja mengeliting 1 Penang.

Hati aku amatlah tertawan dengan MT25 sebab rupa parasnya yang jahat ala2 Bad Boy yang suka mainkan hati perempuan,dengan mata sepetnya yang bagai mengenyit2 kat aku "Pilihlah daku...Pilihlah aku sayang.."ishhhhhh la cair hati...Keluaran Yamaha dengan harga RM21,500,Fuel Tank 14L,2in1 ekzos,Enjin Inline 2 Cylinder,4-stroke,4valve,Liquid Cooled DOHC.Max power 34.5 dan Max Torque 22.6Nm.Perfect!

Manakala KTM DUKE 250 plak tak ubah seperti perampas isteri orang!Kaler orange tu buat bini-bini org,tunangan orang jadi tak keruan...boleh curang ooo...Bila aku kerling jer...aku dengar..."Hai Dear,how ya'doin?"hah gitewwww.Keluaran KTM Malaysia dengan harga 20,500,Fuel Tank 13.4L,Single Ekzos,Enjin Single Cylinder and 4-Stroke.Max Power 29.5 dan Max Torque 24Nm.Gorgeous!

Aku tak tahulah antara 2 orang mamat diatas yang mana bertuah dapat merasa my fat ass riding on him..hahahhahaha lucah sangat...hangpa jangan dok pikiaq yang bukan2...aku cakap pasal motor yer...Subahanalllahh....mengucap cepat!

Aku bercadang nak meminang salah seorang dari depa ni tahun depan inshaAllah kalau ada jodoh la..semoga Allah Taala temukan jodoh aku dengan salah seorang dari mereka diatas.Aminnnnn

Semoga bila aku dah selamat diijabkabulkan nanti harap masa tu COVID19 ni pon habisla...boleh la aku nak ride jauh sikit.1st aku nak turun KL jumpa kengkawan yang amat aku rindui kat sana,pastu ex2staff aku dulu yang havoc..lepas KL mungkin pi Thailand la kot...uishhh tak sabaq rasa macam nak pusing Malaysia pon ada..rindu gila nak pi Pulau Redang,Pulau Perhentian segala Pulau kat Malaysia..owh Langkawi....owh my God of course Langkawi...aku akan heret jodoh aku ni ke Langkawi naik bot...mamposla..ambik cuti seminggu habuan nak mengelinja 1 Langkawi.Kelantan pon aku nak pi jugak walau aku tak tau nak cari apa dekat sana...teruk aku punya angan2 kali nih..haihhh kalau la arwah Nawad ada..konfem dia ikut sekali.Minat yang sama kannnnnn.Tak pa...sorang pon aku akan pi jugak....apa nak jadi...jadilah.

Aku nak motorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Bye

I just miss my blog..

Assalammualaikum...

Salam 13 June 2021..

Dah lama rasanya tak mengadu domba kat sini..hmmm..actually last week aku ada homework given by my counselor on how to be Assertive in Communication.Ughhhh i find it's a bit hard for me to do that.But whats so good about that is finally i get to know that which type of communicator i am.There is Passive,Assertive and Agressive.Yup..most of the times i am being all passive,rarely agressive and none of  it is assertive.

So what is assertive?As per my understanding assertive means having or showing a confident and forceful personality.Haha how is that a Boderline Personality Disorder going to be a confident personality when you yourself still doubting everything about you.Some more assertive person gonna be like a person who communicates assertively by overcoming fear and speaks their mind in a way that respects the personal boundaries of others.This kind of person also will defend theirselves against aggressive people..Owh how am i gonna do that????If i am brave enough to speak my mind or defend myself at the very 1st place...this blog were never exist at all!!!!This is where i speak my mind...where i stand my beliefs and curse people i hate the most!Do you get what i mean?

For example,i gave you Assertive Behaviour - they are an active listener,have good eye contact while communicate and reflect back what was just said to confirm back the info was correct.In my case...i don't even know should i laugh or should i cry..one of my friends sister is fighting with her life,so this friends called me and told me that the Doc just called and said that they can't perform CPR or something like that because her sister conditioned are worsen and they can't help her to get any better.And this friends told me while she is crying and what i heard is totally different which from my understanding from her crying that her sister had passed away bla bla bla CPR tak boleh buat and bla bla bla....and we ended the call.Then i rushed to both of my aunt Cikgu Zainab and Mak Su Cah and told them that my friends sister just died.Next day i heard that my friends sister still alive and still struggling with her life while i'm already announced her death!I felt like killing myself that time because this death matters is not something that you can jokes around.Shit!You moron!And her sister passed away a week after that.Bersalahnya aku......

(13/6/2021@9pm  while i m writing this blog i just received sad news one of my aunt just passed away - Al Fatihah Aci Zubaidah@Mak Besaq - i just can't stop this tears..Guys,Mak Besaq is 1 on of the funniest aunty that i've ever had - she had the widest smile and the best jokes and also the most supportive person..Dear Mak Besaq,i may not visit you always before,but i want you to know without you,things gonna change a lot..hilanglah keceriaan kami semua,gelak tawamu akan aku rindui selalu)

Mohon ramai2 sedekahkan Al Fatihah buat Mak Besaq dan jugak semua umat Islam yang telah pergi dulu sebelum kita semua...Moga ditempatkan bersama orang2 yang beriman....Aminnn

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